I think there is something wrong with me.?

I always feel depressed. I don't enjoy anything anymore. I never feel like getting out of bed or eating. I get irritated for no reason. I feel like nothing can help. I can't concentrate. I'm very morbid, and by that I mean I guess you could say my thoughts are occasionally disturbing. I have thought about suicide. Sometimes I hate myself. I'm very withdrawn. I hate people and I hate talking. I've been to a counselor, but so far I don't think it's helping me very much. I try to avoid people as much as I can. I have had thoughts about hurting people I don't like. I think about murder and death a lot. I day dream a lot. And not normal day dreams. I day dream so much that it's pretty much all I do. I make up lives in my head, and eventually I forgot about my real one. I have disturbing thoughts about hurting people or myself. Sometimes I wish bad things would happen to me and I don't know why. I sometimes scare myself with my thoughts. I've typed in these things and searched them on the internet and things like "bipolar", "unipolar", "morbid thought obsession", and other things. Sometimes I feel like I'm crazy. I sometimes think to fast and have to sit down and sort through my thoughts. I talk fast and people often don't understand what I'm saying. I'm also only thirteen. Please help me. I can't tell anyone these things.